12 more weeks

over a year...

that's how long I've liked this guy.
I told him once, last June to be exact.

(about a week after I told him)
me: when do you leave?
him: friday
me: *****....
him: *****
me: i no longer have the nerve to talk to you in person
him: oh
him: i understand where u are coming from, but feel free to talk to me whenever
me: could you tell me what you think?
him: i dont know why anyone would like me, honestly
me: hahaha
me: well, if i could tell you i would
him: u know my whole opinion about relationships though, dont u?
me: yeah, i do
me: i have one question
him: ok
me: is this something you'd rather pretend never happened?
him: no but thats a really good question
him: i just want to try for our friendship to be normal and like it always has been
me: and it will be

and it has been... I think...
but I still want him. I don't know what I can do to move on. I'm frustrated.
last june, he didn't want a high school relationship.
he's different now. he isn't afraid of relationships anymore.
but now, he doesn't know how I feel about him.
and I'm afraid to tell him...

so what do i do now?
we have 12 weeks until we graduate high school...
what can I do now?